Thursday, March 27, 2008

Back In The Land Of Emptiness

I felt it as soon as the plane took off yesterday afternoon. The feeling of Emptiness started to grow. And as soon as the plane landed for the first leg of my journey, I knew I was right... I had began to hate this place. The familiar yet unfamiliar surroundings. The original lay of 1hr was delayed for 2.5hrs. A sense of nausea kicked in.

The journey here was untolerable, and without having a single bite the whole day, I started to get depress with myself. I kept thinking that if I really hated this place so much, why am I still here? It was not by choice. Well, not mine anyway, I'm doing all this for the powers that be, but sometimes I wonder, isit really worth betraying myself over that paltry sum?

My head started to pound as soon as I got on a cab from the airport. His driving skills, as per all his countrymen, was nothing less than frightful. His horn started blaring as soon as the taxi left the airport grounds... which only added to my misery. "Porrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, por por porrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr", try repeating that sound in your head for the next 45 mins and tell me how you feel. This only fuelled my hatred more, less than an hour an already I want to leave.

Upon reaching the hotel, the front desk informed I was reserved an NS room, I loggered 15mins with the senior sup to change it. They relented, and I felt abit happier. If I was gonna pay US$150/day, I figured at least I get a room I wanted. And as soon as I logged on my lappy, my emptiness lifted, I was happy again.

The meeting started at 10pm, with me having my 1st meal of the day, and the clients rattled on and on. Not surprisingly, beer came, and 3 hrs later, here I am. I can't wait to leave...

I'm not going to lie, I'm abit sloshed at this present moment. I feel that somehow or another, I speak more freely, and also my truest thoughts when I'm slightly intoxicated. Garnered with the fact, I may not even recall a single thing tomorrow. LOL.

With KM playing in the background now, I feel a huge relief. I can't ask for much more, knowing you are there listening , is more than enough for me.

Smoking @ 3:14 AM

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